Happy Christmas Season

Thought I'd post a quick bit about what's up with me lately. I've been pretty busy with school the past couple weeks, and it will probably stay that way through the end of the semester. I need to write a paper on how the music of India has influenced American Pop Music. If anyone has examples, please share them. I hate writing papers. Hopefully I never have to write another after this one. I think that's a reasonable hope, given my major (Computer Science) but I need to figure out how to get one last gen ed requirement waived before I can be certain that I'm free from paper hell. Anyway, it's going to be a stressful couple of weeks, but I'm feeling really happy because it's Christmas time. It's such a fun, pretty, peaceful (in a way) month. So life is good.
As an update on the boy situation, I decided to definitely not get back together with Matt, and that never speaking to him was the right decision. But somehow, briefly entertaining the idea and discussing it with him has given me more closure on the relationship than ever before. I know for sure now that I don't want him in my life. At all. So I have a couple ideas for alternative sources of boy drama (a necessity in my life). I'll just have to wait and see if any of those sources are actually interested in me. Merry Christmas!

The Farthest Distance I've Ever Known

Like any functional person, I try to avoid seeing myself as a multiple-personality case. But sometimes this is hard. You see I have feelings about people and things that are completely inconsistent with my thoughts about those same people and things. So what happens is I end up fighting with myself and never coming to any conclusion about what I really want. Sometimes something feels wrong, but I think its right, and sometimes its that something feels really right, but my brain is sure its wrong. This type of self-conflict characterizes my feelings about the church, and about a certain well-known relationship. In general I'm a pretty logical person, so I think I've mostly chosen to listen to my head in the past. This post is an announcement that I am departing from that strategy. I'm going to really try to ignore some of my thoughts and just do what I feel right about. Please note that I'm not doing what feels good, or what seems fun, I'm doing what genuinely feels right. So if you disagree with my actions in regards to the relationship (as I assume anyone who knows the story would), please remember that this same course of action is the reason I go to church. And for now, I'm really happy with both decisions.